everyones stressed out...

blahz.

you know these days ive really been wondering whether or not all my friends will stick together till the end of year 12.. there are so many fights and bitching within our group.. all of which are pretty stupid really.

and i really dont know.. people are starting to get on my nerves.. especially those who are beginning to turn into snobs.. i really question which ones are actually my real friends nowadays. meh. =/

im so over the freaking out about vce shit. its so stupid. i realised how pointless it is to to freak out before the sac because i hadnt done enough preparation. and then turn all emo and shit afterwards because i was the one who actually couldnt be bothered studying. im pretty sure im not the only one who thinks like this. seriously, its so much easier to just. STUDY. =.=

i mean.. sure. vce is annoying. subjects are boring. but this is something that will determine .. hmm.. well maybe not all of our life.. but definitely something in it. its a pathway to a good future. and we're all in this together.. so its not that bad right?? =D

i guess its just how to approach it. i really have been wondering how on earth people have been saying how Year 12 is so fun and stuff like that.. because these days, all i've been seeing are past exam papers and revision notes for sacs. lol!! ah welll.. at least i still get to hang out with friends and stuff.. even if my friendship group is deteriorating..

rah rah. im sick of all the bitching and gossip thats been going around. someone told me that someone said im a player coz of the whole derek thing. ok. just because i have a few guy friends and he almost kissed me.. that does NOT mean that im gona go and play all of them. -.-.. wtf. leave my life alone. =/.. anyway i was kinda surprised that that someone said that anyway but yeah.. hopefully she didnt really mean it.. i just hope others dont think the same.

anyway the chem sac today wasnt too bad.. i think i lost like 4 marks tho.. -.-;;.. eugh i hate this.. im like.. lowering my standards these days. gah. but i just cant seem to do well in chem.. lol.

right now im feeling very full. i had samurai for lunch again. i got a vanilla milkshake with it. ive decided to cut down on samurai food from now on. coz seriously, im turning obese.

see. another reason why vce is an evil bitch.

prettyful jewels.
grwawr xox

TSFX weekend

o.k. so here i am sitting in the meeting room at school. i totally forgot to bring my charger home .. so i had no lappy and couldnt update on everything thats been happening.. soooo.. here goes:

FRIDAY:

after school i went to tsfx.. got to melb uni at about 4.45.. marked off my name.. saw justin and went in together. we sat together and jack came and sat with us too. and LOL some dude was stalking him or some shit.. the whole entire time he hung around us and was following justin.. what a creep.. =/... anyway i hardly concentrated in the stupid lecture coz of him. -.-..

i got home.. and then fell asleep on my books.. i obviously didnt study anything on friday night. =/

SATURDAY:

got to melb uni at like.. 9.15 for my chem lecture. met up with soo, sophia, ting and jess inside the lecture. saw some other mlc girls too. oh.. i saw ray and yan there too.. lol.. hadnt seen them for ages.. it was like a chinese school reunion ahaha...

anyway the lecture was freaking 8 hours long.. we had like a 35 min lunch break and 2 short breaks in between... it was draining. the chairs were so nice and comfy that i fell asleep.. but i woke up every now and then to write down the stuff irena wrote.. lol it was funny. soo said i was good at it. lol yeah im pro.

half the time i wasnt even listening though.. towards the end me and soo ended up writing notes to each other.. ahaha.. good times.

SUNDAY:

i said id meet derek near gate 4 at 9.15.. i got there at like 9.10.. looked around and saw he wasnt there.. it was freaking cold and i was getting pissy. so i walk to richard berry and he walks out with some friend and sees me and hugs me. we go in.. he sneaked into the theatre and sat together with his friend Nik, who used to go to salesian. i obviously didnt concentrate during the first 3 hours of the lecture coz we were writing notes to each other the whole entire time. he asked me to his formal too.. i didnt reject him like.. straight away but i did imply that i couldnt go. i think he got the message. i mean.. come on.. 1) its on the 13th june.. so little time.. so much to prepare.. i dont have spare time for stuff like this. 2) i hardly know him 3) i only know him and cam from salesian 4) its just.. weird. =/

so i think he was a bit upset or watevs coz its like.. he came to the tsfx thing wen he doesnt even do acc, JUST to ask me to his formal. i dont no what he was expecting. but mmh.. maybe he isnt a player? nik said that hes not and they've known each other for a while.. but its still weird.. its like all that chatting and stuff was to get me to go to his formal.

anyway i saw tim and ray at the acc lecture. at lunchtime, we all went down to china bar together. i met ray's friends too.. julian and [enter name which i forgot]. but lol i decided to call ray's friends romeo and juliet. hahaha.. nik and derek were there too.. i shared a satay beef with derek lol.

after lunch derek had to go to his neap chem lecture at 2.. so he said goodbye to everyone (rays friends + nik) and then everyone left and it was just me and him.. so i said bye and stuff and we hugged and then he goes 'can i get a kiss' and starts moving towards me like REALLLLYy close.. so i pushed him away but his lips still touched my neck. i kinda got a bit freaked out... =/.. but yeah i think i made it QUITE clear that i dont wanna get too close and personal with him *shiver*. anyway i left him after he hugged me again (and again -.-)

the rest of the lecture i sat with nik coz ray was sitting with romeo and juliet ahahahaa.. i actually concentrated a LOT. in fact, so much that i got a headache! ahahaha

so we finished early (around 4.10) so ray, romeo, juliet, nik and i trammed together MC.. i met alvina on the tram, she knows julian and shes the girl that justin went to the formal with. anyway shes nice.

we hung around mc.. i grabbed a gloria jeans coffee and we sat chatting. lol bumped into desy too.. we chatted for a while, introduced our friends and yeah...

but lol i was telling alvina about the whole derek thing.. coz she knew that he was there at the CAS thing and she was actually sitting behind me and saw how he was passing notes to me and stuff.. LOL.. but she knew that he needed a formal partner too and stuff..lolz. despo. =/

anyway i added her and juliet on fb.. im worried tho coz i duno if i added the right julian.. ahahahhaha.... i added nik on msn too lol.

ANDDDDDDDDDDDDd.. that concludes my exciting tsfx weekend. its been a very interesting week. lolz.. who knows whats gona happen next.

my life is so unpredictable.

next chapter:
chem sacs

grwawr
xox

Nick gives good sex.

(R) Asinine. Life's a Bitch. says:
yes I'm capped, thanks to your sex

(R) Asinine. Life's a Bitch. says:
GIVES SO MUCH SEX YOU'LL GET CAPPED IN A SINGLE GO

lmao nick. =P
nick gives me a lot of sex. its all very good sex.
i love all the sex that hes been giving me
and im getting very capped. but oh well. its worth it.

ahahaha.. man.. that sounds so bad doesnt it. lol.. nick and i have an ongoing thing about this 'sex'. ahahaha.. ahhhh.. all these sexual innuendos! LMAO!

okay. my day:

period 1: free.. stayed at home and did no work

period 2: lit - did some poem analysis.. im really into poetry analysis actually.. i prefer poetry as opposed to boring long novels like sense and sensibility. -.-;;.. s and s is so stupid.. everything just comes back to social mannerisms, appearances, propriety.. blahz. so boring -.-

recess: zomg. ok so i walk to our classroom.. and XXX sees me and goes 'have you done accounting???'.. and im like... 'EUGHHHhhh!!!'.. zomg.. trust =/.. but then yuna asked her about the sac and she said how it wasnt very long and how it was alright but she thinks she did bad. and i was like 'you always say that but you always get 90+' and then she was like all moody and pissy and was like 'well you say you fail too but you always get over 80'.. and i said how my good is so much lower than her good. and then she got all pissed off.. O_O.. so no one really talked to her after that. and lolz. wen i looked out the classroom (she was sitting near the glass windows) and she probs thought i was looking at her or something... but she like turned away and everything... lol. i was like O.O;; After a while she got up and made to the door.. everyone was like 'where're u going??' to which she gave a mumbled reply. and i was just like -.-;;... man she annoys me so much these days. her attitude.. wtf.. so moody -.-;;.. and lol she backstabs a lot. like the other day i was trying on soo's korean dress thing.. and i was like 'omg i look retarded ahahahah!' and soil was like 'yeah you are retarded' and obviously she was joking.. -.-;;.. but no.. XXX goes and tells someone whose not even in our group, NOR our year level about how soil was being serious wen she said im retarded. like im friends with the someone and so's soil.. but still. XXX is strange. i shall leave her be.

period 3: cancelled methods.. walked around trying to find ppl who would come with me down the road. found no-one. so i decided to look like a loser and made my way down glenners. i got to samurai, went inside and who do i see? gabby and oliver!! ahahaha! i ordered my lunch special + 2 green tea milkshakes (minta wanted one) and went to sit and chit chat. eventually oliver walked back to school with me whilst gabby sat like a loner and waited for mich. =]. my god. green tea milkshake is so freaking yummy.

lunch: eat/drink/chat/gossip... all the usual! =D.. and XXX didnt come. =/.. no surprises there.
period 4: got my methods sac back omfg.. did sooooo shittttttttttttttt... T____________T

and that is all.
lol my whole week has been so interesting.
i like this week!

more to come:
Acc SAC today (friday) p4
TSFX today (friday) at 5.00 - 8.30 pm at melb uni for chem book 4.. carmen and soil are going. will see justin and jack too i think.... i better not get distracted.. or else ill fail the sac on tues....
TSFX saturday at 9.30 - 5.30 pm at melb uni for chem exam revision.. soo and mum (sophia) are going... yayyyyyy
TSFX sunday at 9.30 - 4.30 pm at melb uni for acc exam revision.. tim will be there.. and derek's gona sneak in and leave at 1.

zomg so cute!!
to me it looks like a rabbit-hamster cross.
grwawrrrrr

xox

HAHAHA!

observations of today:

Roya is actually half-thai, half-persian
and she even talks thai!!! i was like WOWOWOWOOWWOWWW!!!!

hahah i love her. shes awes.

Chewey likes to chew.

love love tiff and co:

grwawr.
going to bed now!
sleepy duooooooooooooo!!!!!!

*yawn*

xox

lolol.

mmmmh.. i removed someone from my facebook! =DDDD
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

hahah im so mean! =( lol but im sorry.. that person annoys the shit out of me =]

i had a good day today. went home at like 12.40.. wagged that careers assembly shitzo. ahaha! i got home and did some lit and then tried to study chem but failed miserably!! i feel so bad for not doing that much for it.. blahz. i swear im gona fail the exam. i really dont understand anything without actually referring to my notes or checking the answers. fuck im noob T_T

anyway i went to tsfx today! got there at about ... 4.20? lolz. i saw tim! he was going to the chem thing.... omg i havent seen him for agessssss!! hahaha.. hes nice.. but so smart.. and he was with one of his friends .. who looked nerdy. and then whilst i was talking to him, this other melb high guy came up to us.. i remember he was at the summer school lectures before.. and lol i had my earphones in.. but i could stil hear what he was saying. lol he asked tim which school i go to and stuff... and im like.. =/.. why couldnt he just ask me himself... i mean ok, i walked away and was reading something on the wall but i was close enough.. roflllll. weirdo. that guy is weird. i reckon he tried to pick up lisa. ahahahhaha!!

i saw karen straight after that.. we went in. methods was so freaking boring.. the teacher was so strange i swear. he had the weirdest smile and me and pei xuan kept laughing every time he smiled. eventually, we had to stop looking at him altogether. anyway we had dinner at about 6.30.. next session started at 7. there were 2 guys sitting next to me.. one was in my methods class at tsfx and the other i did not know. they were from the same school. lol towards the end.. the guy i didnt no (derek) started passing notes to me.. and we started talking.. hes nice lol but .. a possible player? =O.. ahaha anyway after much nagging, i gave him my msn.. (he added me but i havent spoken to him yet) and we kept talking through passing notes. omg i felt so guilty afterwards tho.. coz i hardly listened to the weird smiley teacher.. but yeah =/... the guy in my methods class, cameron, was so freaking smart as per usual but lol he kept giving advice to derek or something.. it was funny.

anyway after class we all went to the train station together.. i had to ditch poor pei xuan because i was running late for the train and mum would have murdered me if i came home late. anyway i discovered that derek takes the glen waverley line too so we pretty much ran to the platform.. coz it was like 1 min .. and.. we missed it. -.-.. so i decided to take the sandringham line instead.. he came with me to the platform lol.. and we just.. talked.. and then the train came and he asked for a hug.. yeah he asked -.-.. and i hugged him and left rofl

O_O.. mmmm.. i think hes a player. rofl.. but rofl he says he'll prove to me hes not a player.. mmmmhhh.. watch this space lol!

but no matter what.. i really dont want another r/s this year.. way too time consuming and mind consuming. =/

i have no idea what the korean in that pic means but its pretty <3

omg im so tired. i think i shall sleep nowwwwww!!
grwawr xox

rahh.

so i convinced mum to let me wag general tomo. its pointless to go anyway.. as if ill listen to those silly ppl talking about their careers. even if i do go, ill probably wont remember half the stuff they say anyway.. so.. what is the point? =D

ahahaa! long day for me tomo.. gona be home at like.. 9.30 pm.. -.-;;.. stupid TSFX CAS session thingo... poo. at least there are gona be some mlc girls there.. ALTHO! i confirmed my seat there but.. i wasnt told which room or level im on.. so.. what.. to dooooo.. mmh ill probs be walking around looking like a noob. =]. oh wellz!

mmmh.. i was kinda pissy today. ppl are really annoying me. today during ... class, XXX said that she slept at like 1 am last night.. i said i slept late coz i was working earlier but then i wanted to go online and talk to ppl.. but she said that she didnt do any work. -.-;;.. im like.. mmh.. yeah try lie better than that honey. =/.. ok i didnt say that but i was thinking that. i mean, come on. i asked her what she was doing till 1 am.. and she was like 'um.. i.. showered.. and.. i dont know. i ate.. and i dont no'.. -.-;;.. dude. =/.. seriously if you're studying just say you're studying.. its not like a bad thing.

and also another thing similar to this pissed me off yesterday.. before the lecture, YYY kept moaning and complaining about having to be there and stuff.. and then we get into the lecture and shes totally hard working and full on concentrating. O.O i dont get how ppl think..

mmmh. im in a ranty mood today. so ill add another thing that pisses me off. like ok, i have high expectations of myself.. but they're reasonable expectations okay.. but seriously when you say that you're gona fail and then you get like 95 percent... -.-;;.. thats just stupid. and then how they say they didnt study beforehand and stuff .. poo. sif they dont study.. everyone studies. i reckon everyone studies in year 12. it just depends on how long you study for and how ready you are. but meh. sif lie about that...

hmmm.. everyones getting really competitive these days. and bitchy. that annoys me. =/

oh how i miss the ol' year 11 dayssssss!!!

*reminiscence*

i <3 tiffany & co.

grwawr xox

'Body found on train'... and i saw the body bag.

yeah.. thats right. here's my story:

i was on the way to melb uni today. i met up with juhee at heyington train station at about 9.20 am. the train, which was supposed to leave at 9.23, was delayed by about 5-6 minutes.

eventually, it came and we arrived at Flinders street station. i realised that our train didnt actually stop at the platform which it normally does. puzzled, juhee and i made our way up the escalators. we then encountered some firemen and a few people about to/making a media report.

confused, we went out of the train station and ran to our tram stop due to the traffic light which was flashing red. =P...

we got on the tram, and it left. as we were going past the clocks in Flinders street, we noticed 2 big ambulances stopping near the train station. as we looked more carefully, we noticed 2 firemen carrying a stretcher.. and on it was a black-coloured, zipped.. body bag.

needless to say, juhee and i.. freaked out. =].. we were so confused but so sure that the person was actually dead. something bad must have happened on the train. suicide? an accident? we decided to wait until we hear about it in the news, to confirm our assumptions.

a few minutes ago, i came across this article on The Age's website:

heres the actual link.. i dont no why the pic is SO small..:
http://www.theage.com.au/news/general/body-found-on-train/2008/05/18/1211049026746.html

mmh.
i feel rather freaked out and shivery at the moment. i wonder why? =O lol

grwawr xox.

zomg.

its SO COLDDDDDD!! *shiver*

went to tsfx today.. so boring.. but i actually concentrated a LOT.

i cant believe i have to go that 8 hr thing next week.

AND the stupid cas thing on tues

AND the stupid extra class thing on fri

AND a stupid lecture tomo.

conclusion: vce is stupid. =/

blub. parents are cooling down. mum's been helping me with acc lol! i did soooooo much study just then.. *proud face*.. get ready for it...... 2 and a half hours of acc!! STRAIGHT!! =DDDD.. woooo!! this is a very high achievement for duo wang.

my obsession with rnb continues.

gotta love the music nick sends me.. they're SOOOOO GOOOOOODDDD!! zomg. sex <3

hahah that reminds me of the convo nick and i were having... maybe ill quote it someday! ahaha! =D

hmm i quite like blogspot actually.. it feel more like a blog. =/

altho im still getting used to navigating around.. haha ill get used to it v v soon =]

im having hot pot for dinner tonight. and then afterwards i plan to do an hour of lit. and at least write a plan or SOMETHINGGGGG!! i cant just go into the sac and be like 'yep i no what im doing'.. IM GONA FAILLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!

rah. im still stressing about my mm mark. TRYING not to think about it tho!!! =SSS

mmmh. im determined to stay in my parents' good books now. mum still wont give me back my fone. she didnt even give it to me today wen i went to tsfx -.-;;.. how am i supposed to contact juhee tomo then?!?!?!.. oh. that reminds me i need to look at the timetable thingo for the train.. =/

i think im gona eat soon..

yayyyy!!!! mum just called meeeeee =DDDDDD

grwawr xox

old one.

http://www.xanga.com/queen_of_flowers

^
sigh. good times =DDDD

.procrastination.

is so bad -.-;;

zomg here i am typing away..

wen i should be doing my lit..

gah.. why is it that every time im doing anything lit-ish im blogging.. -.-

faaaaaaaarout.



anyway. mum's angry again.

turns out she actually went into my room and LOOKED THROUGH all my checkpoints and shit and saw that i didnt do most of them..

-.-;;

and then she obviously got really angry and crap. and omg she lectured me for so long.. i wish she wouldnt talk for so long. it just wastes my time. and i really dont have that much time to study........ >.>....

zomfg i cant believe its almost exams. shit lol?



okay so i thought i would have a new approach to studying.. ever since mum took away my fone i find it easier to concentrate during class and at home whilst studying (of course).. but mmmh.. why is it that i keep falling asleep on methods?? -.-;; damn stupid methods. which reminds me.. im really scared that i did shit in my sac.. i KNOW i did.. im so dreading getting it back.. and eveyrone else found it easy.. it WAS easy!! i just did the most STUPID mistakes.. -.-;;



fuck. im screwed.



anyway. i really should get on with this lit thing. its so freaking harddddd!!

i have tsfx tomo. hope mum gives me back my fone... well she better.. HOW ELSE AM I SUPPOSED TO CALL HER AFTERWARDS??!! and plus i need to call juhee about sunday.. woo acc lecture woo! =/



blub. im out.



grwawr xox

NEW BLOG

yayyyy new blog!!

mmmh i really shouldnt be doing this right now..

so much for planning for my lit sac... -.-;;

shall blog more later =]

grwawr xox